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2 February 2006
Well hello my solemned sorrowed and sorried friends to this here fantistic little page of fun otherwised
referred to as the Shindo Spot! Have you been craving this here website as much as I have? Yeah, I figured you wouldn't have.
For those visiting and for those staying this will keep you on track with me and my life as I progress through various things.
Unfortunately I get very opinionated and as of the moment am quite dry, I'll get this up and running again and here's to hoping
it's all working still. If not, I'll fix it!
MONDAY 1 AUGUST 2005
As the trials approach I am procrastinating heavily, I said I wouldn't update, but I am severely unreliable. I want you
to read this, just so I can show you how much of a fool I can make of myself when bored. Feel free to pay me out at leisure.
AN INTERPOL REVIEW LIKE NO OTHER
What an amazing night! From the gyrating spectacle that was "The snowmen" to the enigmatic allure of Paul Bank's vocals
and tone, cramming "The Interpol" Enmore last concert in the night before the trials began was worth it to say the least.
As procrastination has taken over me full speed, I have chosen to capture the flavour of the melodic phantasmagorical ride
that was last night.
Although much could be said (and a good much) about the support act who are both musically talented and entertaining to
say the least, I am here to rant on about Interpol and rant on about Interpol is what I shall do.
Wow. Capturing the essence of the beauty of such a majesty in music is difficult to comprehend, let alone begin. I'm not
quite too sure there are enough words in the English language (I know at least).
The stage slowly fogged engulfing the instruments, establishing a serene, tranquil and almost cathartic setting in preparation
for the lingering musicians. Situated on the front left barricade of the stage, we were in front of Daniel Kessler, and since
this one man knows exactly how to "feel the music", the audience felt more than compelled to do the same.
I can just breath the atmosphere, the band members carved their strong yet elusive figures through the penetrating smoke
making their way to their respective instruments. As Carlos D. mystified the air with his bellowing puffs, his stage presence
was almost overwhelming, holding his instrument as a soldier to a gun (sorry I can't think of better similes). Then, then
I heard the immense beauty of the beautiful Paul Bank's voice as they began the melodic ballad "Untitled". The drum beats
soaring, permeating the inner essence that was belonging of my soul. Suddenly the music and its respective greatness became
an embodiment of my persona. I stood still. Captivated in the tranquil and sublime ecstasy that I felt as Banks permeated
this inner essence, coercing the physical barrier that surrounded me into hiding.
The music melded into each other, enlightening, cathartic, I felt like I was dieing, yet being brought back to life at
the same time, the white light was near, the strobing, ruddy and florid hues contrasting with the bellowing blues cast upon
the respective players figures. As "Take me on a cruise" and "C'mere" (my favourite songs) I could merely do more than feel
the music. I was isolated. The shallow guitar riffs and mystic allure of the possessing voice of Banks as a liner on the alienated
ocean were trailing a concentric flight around my figure, flying through me, through every essence that embodied me. I became
the music.
Fast past tracks as "Slow hands" and "PDA" lended to the swift gliding of Kessler, who is surprisingly tiny in real life,
as he stood above us feeling the music. Captivated by his smooth and swift shifting and fleeting of his feet and body, we
understood that he was just so involved in the music that he could do little more than move. Watch him. Watch as his pulsating
temptresses became one with the rhythmic beats shifting and sliding to the every evasive movement of the haggard and distracted
beats. Watch him. Watch as he carved through the icy cathartic beauty, his shadows casting immense dancing beauties upon the
surrounding streamlined masses. Watch banks as his silent, yet reverential figure would do just the same, matching Kessler's
riffs with frantic excitement. Kessler had his eyes closed, his head a sparking menace moving merely in time to his smooth
moves as he would swiftly place one guttered step in front of the other.
Then, as is expected, we must dedicate more than one paragraph to the majesty that is Paul Banks. His face is the most
captivating I have seen in real life, I must say that there is no ay that photos do him justice. Rarely did he smile (one
of the only complaints, along with a short set list that I had with concert), but when he did, and looked into our direction,
it was the most beautiful thing. He has the most perfect wings, falling gracefully upon his soft and mesmerising face, moving
poignantly to caustic pointed tips. His blond hair enveloping his face, carving perfect rounds as he fringe falls breathlessly,
sliding ever-so tirelessly as he would sway in beat to the music. We must capture that beautiful moment. That absolutely memorious
moment when he looked into our direction and we saw the amazement of his front profile, the pure beauty the could only be
associated with his face at this point in time (here's to hoping he never finds this). When he smiles, oh when he smiled,
his eyes were the penetrating, encapsulating, involving, ever other word, you couldn't do anything but stare straight into
his beautiful beautiful eyes, how I could stare for ages. Oh, and his perfect nose working in unison with those breath-taking
eyes. All he needed to do was smile once and it would light up the room. You see why he needs to smile more? Oh the beauty,
no words can capture the beauty that will forever reside in my memory. Right then and there, I knew that was a historic moment,
one that shall be marked down in my memory for years to come. I don't really like his pictures, this is why I want to be able
to just look at him for ages and ages (I know this is weird), endlessly look at the beauty of his face without him seeing
me I don't know how this could happen in real life. He has a beautiful beautiful face, it is indescribable. Wow! It is so
beautiful. Complemented by his clever dress sense and arm band.
Then, then there is the amazement of his tone, the enigmatic allure of his captivating voice. It makes you yearn, speak
more, please say more, we are hanging by your every word. Unfortunately, his rare pieces were, "we would like to thank the
snowmen, amazing band" and little to no crowd interaction at all. This is sad in a way because this sets him down almost as
an altar piece, up on its pillar purely for inspirational and modelling purposes, interaction with the crowd makes him human,
smiling makes him beautiful, his eyes make him captivating. It seems that everything about this man is so perfect, I mean
I seriously have not seen any man/boy as amazingly beautiful in real life as he, he lights up the room, how rare. The perfection
of his voice, his face, his presence. I quote Suzy in saying, "He is just so gorgeous, you just want to up and marry him."
Yes, Suzy, we sure do. The ambience set by that concert will be hard to challenge or unmatchable, it certainly was a rare
experience, I will definitely see them again and again, just to experience a similar catharsis and intoxicating beauty that
can be paralleled with the euphoria experienced by drugs. I will see them again and again and again and again. I will see
him again and again, I can't get enough!!! That was fantastic.
Tuesday 12 July 2005
Hi guys, well this is probably a sad farewell, so I'll make it long and tedious for you guys to read to
ease up on the pain you might feel upon the absence of this website. On account of the large space of time I left since the
last post (in June) I have a few things I would like to say. Number one, although its flattering, I really am questioning
who the people are who visit this site, I know I haven't put a counter out on display but I get over 300 hits a week. So unless
you guys are visiting and re-visiting the site unnecessarily, then the figures just don't add up. My theory: Russian spies
keep checking out my site because they believe I am a mathematical genius preparing to take an all out assault on their land.
And before you completely rule it out, I must say it is very likely. Number two, with procrastination as my first priority
I have been feeding through a number of films, some of which "An American Werewolf in Paris" (which I found highly amusing
for such a crap film: introducing obsession of the month, its lead actor "Tom Everett Scott"), I heart huckabees(good luck
with following this movie, but if you do you'll love it, very funny!), Pi (strange, but recommendable for artsy types), there
are more, but they are not list-worthy. I love those types of movies, in the style of "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"
and "Garden State", I have a few ideas in this sort of style, but am yet to reveal them cause you guys will think they are
stupid. But, after some work, can't wait to put them into practice! Number three I think I was up to, I have been doing filming,
etc and am almost done, I can't be bothered elaborating on that topic. Number four, you are probably all wondering what the
hell I was talking about at the top of this column when I said "the last post" (no pun intended), well, I'm closing down this
site. And I'm sorry to say, but I can't keep it up, and I don't (personally) think that its that interesting, well, not to
keep up anyways. If you want to protest, I'm giving you 1 week to give me enough of a reason to keep it up (do it in the guestbook).
But, if people don't comment, then I seriously won't keep it, because I don't really think you guys want to hear about my
pathetic life anyways. It's actually quite boring. Stories, stories, stories. Here's an update: I am no longer in love with
the man-whore, it's been like that for a while, he's very uncool. Sorry to disappoint. Don't work at coles too much anymore,
in fact, haven't worked for two months, three months. School's a drag as usual. Don't have brothers or sisters, so this is
a disappointingly uneventful farewell. I've lost the inspiration to write funny stuff, except I will tell you a funny story.
Yesterday I was on triple j for a good half an hour chatting to Jay and the doctor. No joke, ask anyone that was listening.
I rung up cause I needed a song for my film and they aired a nation wide search with my trigger "the film clip has a guy running
backwards in it" anyways, it involved not much, but in my stupidity arose some humility and hence, I was funny by accident.
At one stage (and I can quote on this) I said, "I know I'm being....can't find the word....(3 seconds pass)...ambiguous" Yes,
shoot me, I sounded like a loser. Anyways, found the song, was very satisfying, it worked. So I love you & hate you
all my friends and fiends!!! Stay cool as you do, I'm saying farewell my trecherous friends, and in case I don't see yah,
have a nice life!!!
THURSDAY 16 JUNE 2005
Well, hi, I probably won't update for a while, I need to undo my addiction to the net, etc. You know sometimes
I wonder who you guys are who visit my site, cause I know the number of people that visit the site, but yeah, unfortunately
I don't know who exactly you are. I know a few of the people, but that doesn't compensate for the numbers. Ah well, moving
on. I've been talking and there has been a circulating discussion recently after too much Oprah, do you think you would be
able to stop yourself from getting addicted to drugs after one session of getting high? Would you be able to leave it all
to will power and say "hey, I don't want to go back again, I could get addicted", and after a little bit of thinking, I don't
think I am that strong. Don't get me wrong, I'm curious, I think everyone is, but I really don't think I would be able to
stop myself, however my parents would do it for me. Anyways, I don't really have access to these places where drugs are sold,
so fret not, I have no association with the drug trade, nor have I been involved with any sort of drug, seriously, I haven't
even smoked. I don't want to, its grosse. Sorry to all those smokers out there. It is my own personal opinion, I don't even
know any smokers who visit this site, so I don't think this is applicable to anyone. Anyways, here is a cool site www.fotocommunity.com and some friends and I have pictures posted up there, so check it out if you have time. Oh, and I found www.bored.com wow, very helpful and convenient. I then found www.createbands.com that is very fun, oh and if the link doesn't work, just go to bored.com and go to the create bands link, I don't know the
websites off by heart. I am just going off the top of my head. Okay, so have I asked the tough questions yet? The other day
I went on a whole "let's discuss the depressing nature of suicide" binge. I had a number of people tell me things around that
time about suicide, so I needed to address it. Anyways, next topic, a little bit lighter and I want you to think about this,
what would you do if your best friend changed sex? Yeah, I think I mentioned something earlier about this but I had the question
posed to me and it is kind of weird to think of. Wow, these posts have become so serious, the other ones used to be very informal
and one even involved chucking a chicken through the screen. Sorry, no chickens today, but I do recommend some old school
Green Day for jumping around the floorboards in your pyjamas (with your eyes closed!) What to do? Well everyone, we'll have
to face the fact that soon enough we'll be kicked into the great wide world and we'll have to know what we are going to do
with our life. I know what I am going to do and I know you know what I am going to do, but it is just so hard, i don't know
how I will get there. I don't know, don't you ever have those times? You lay in bed and look at the stars (I have plastic
stars stuck on my ceiling) and think about your future, or your lack of future, or you think about the people who think you
have a lack of future. But then you think about your life and what you have done with it and if you have done enough. I know
we are still young, but really, I think if there is a philosophy I live by, it is seize the moment, not day, not week, not
month, but the moment. If you see something come up, eg. you have the chance to sneak into a Green Day mosh pitt (I'm working
off experience) take it, stop thinking about the consequences for a minute, and yeah, this is the stupid part of my brain
speaking now, but it just so happens that it is the part of my brain that has fun. You think about that logical side thinking
out problems, over analysing, never having fun, that part of me has screwed over so many things, but it has also fixed a lot
of things. Anyway, back on track, seize the moment, if "eye of the tiger" plays at your formal and no one is dancing,you get
up there and go psycho! We only have one left, might as well give it a try. I know I will probably get told off for this,
but the funner aspects of my life were experienced when I was being just a little bit out there, some times a lot past my
boundaries. Except I live so much by my parents it makes me feel horrible. Yeah, actually, this is why I say seize the moment
instead of day, cause if you are already at a location and you've told your parents you are going to be there, hec, just do
it. You want to run on stage naked, really?, well, if you do, just do it, i mean i would never do it but that shouldn't stop
you from doing it. Anyways, I've crapped on enough, and its late, so I hope I have motivated you all to go just a little bit
more crazy today. And I mean crazy fun and stupid! Not just crazy stupid! See yah later friends.....
THURSDAY 9 JUNE 2005
No more message board, sorry people.
Simple case of word association, what do you think when I say:
1. individual
2. life
3. death
4. tree
5. sun
6. music
7. gun
8. train
9. guy
10. love
11. marriage
12. girl
13. friend
14. brain
15.evil
16. heart
17. horrible
18. help
19. space
20. you
no particular hidden meaning to that, maybe you'll find your answers interesting
What would you do in these scenarios:-
1. You have fallen deeply in love with someone and they are deeply in love with you, you have been dating
for 4 years and feel it is time to get married. One month before your wedding you find out your fiancee has actually had a
sex change, so you are sleeping with someone originally of the same sex. What do you do?
a) shout at them a hell of a lot and leave
b) continue with the marriage
c) also have a sex change so that you can "experience" what your partner is feeling and become a gay couple
2. You are trapped in a room with three people, your brother/sister, your teacher and your boyfriend/girlfriend.
You have three choices to get out with the sacrifice of one of these people.
A) kiss your brother or sister (tongue involved) and never see your boyfriend/girlfriend again (they are
alive, you just will never see them)
b) tell your teacher you have been sleeping with their mum/dad and everyone is free except you, you stay
in this room forever, no food, etc. (reminiscent of saw)
c) you find an escape route, however you can only go through it because it is a "one person" escape route
(its a hypothetical situation) and you have the knowledge that everyone in the room gets tortured while you are free
Hmmm, I'm not being sick, hypotheticals are just fun to think about...
TUESDAY 7 JUNE 2005
What would you do if someone really close to you died? And I'm not kidding, what do you think you would
do if I died tomorrow? Or what if you died tomorrow, how do you think people around you would react? I've been told that suicide
is selfish because it ruins the lives of many others around you, but if you are in that much of a hole where do you go? Haven't
you ever had the feeling that you have no one else left that you can talk to? You have no one left that you can trust and
it's true that no one can understand you as much as you understand yourself. People react to things in different ways, so
how do you know that your comforting is not essentially be hurting the person? I don't mean to be being all morbid,
but sometimes people are so fake that you really wonder if they have truly felt alone before.
Maybe its cause I'm an only child. Who knows. Think about it...
:: Isn't it amusing that the network automatically creates links for such things as "Glow in the dark Stars"
and "Ice cream" you know what I mean?
:: After thought - go to channel v and go to "Andy G's blog" on the main page. He's actually a very strange, weird and wonderful guy to read
about. Plus he likes ween and the Foo Fighters.
SUNDAY 5 JUNE 2005
Okay, here's something: 17 people visited this site yesterday, and although that is a severly diminished
number from the prior day, I am still wondering, what gives? Who are these people, I don't even have that many friends to
be visiting this site! I guess it remains a mystery. Without sounding like a pompous prick, I need to contest to the remarks
that I only like music for certain musicians. I hate having to say this, but I like the music over and above any sort of attraction
I find to members of the band. And to prove my point, I will only ever speak of the music from now on. I feel like a hippie,
all that is left is the fire and the drugs. But, to speak of my roots, I like the clip for Audioslave's "Be yourself" I think
is the name of the song. All you budding film makers out there take note, this is a good clip shot-wise. I also suggest you
watch Scrubs tonight at 11pm on channel 7. Weird time slot I know, but hey, its returned, so I'm happy. Check the TV guide
though, I don't know if I'm right. Tomorrow Andrew Denton's interviewing Steven Spielberg on enough rope, so I guess
whoever wants to see that, should see it. Go here for info on the Foo's concert last week. Okay, also, if you are looking to get ideas, for me at least,
just before I fall asleep I get the best ideas. I have glow in the dark stars on my roof and they add to the whole universe
feel. I know I sound like a loser, but that's cause I am...Anyways, a friend said keep a notepad and pen by your bed. It works,
only sometimes it is severly difficult to read your own writing in the morning. Nothing happens in my life, so respectively,
I have nothing to say.
Bye bye trecherous friends, enemies and people who don't even know who I am but visited the site because
they are bored wittless and have nothing better to do, stay safe, see yah soon!
P.S It's all about the music man!
FRIDAY 3 JUNE 2005
Okay, I have a few things to mention, and this time around, I think they may be a bit entertaining. I moved
the May archives to the side where it says "May archives". I also have one major question to ask. Yesterday it says I got
50 something hits. Um: What the hell? How, no one knows of this site! So, this leaves me to believe one of two theories:
1. Some really bored person visited this site 50 times
or
2. The word on this site is truly spreading, I don't know how
So, to address the rather amusing second factor.
Apparently there is a rumour circulating that I am dating Steve. Now, I have no idea who started this rumour
and as amusing as it is, I have to break a few of your hearts and say, no I am not dating Steve, and for that matter, no I
will never date Steve in the future, nor is he my "one" and never will be. As funny as this sounds, I heard from a friend
who heard from a friend of a friend who heard from Brett that we were going out. I don't know who Brett's "sources" are cause
I have never spoken to him before but I'm sorry, it just ain't true. If people at my school find out, and I have to start
denying these allegations (and I have already had to deny it once), well if I find out who started these allegations your
getting fried!
How am I getting 50 people to visit this crappy website listening to me crap on about my crappy life? How?
In this day and age of Ipods and playstation 2s, surely there are better things to do! (but please don't leave, it makes me
feel loved)
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